Yes, I did. Because it made me feel normal. It was one of the few things that made me feel normal at that time.
In hindsight, it was not the best idea. Cancer has been repeatedly linked to alcohol consumption. My habits probably, no, let's be honest, most likely, led to my cancer recurrence and metastasis.
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To assume so much personal responsibility almost hurts. But it's also empowering in a way that relying on your oncologist for all wisdom and answers is not.
I've been having a pity party since my liver mets diagnosis this past February. I just want someone to fix this. That's why I got a new, smarter oncologist at a big, fancy, high-tech cancer center.
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My new oncologist has me continuing with Lupron and Xgeva, eliminated Arimidex and Faslodex, and added Afinitor and Aromasin. But in the end, it's not going to be these meds that cure me, and I am surely seeking a cure at this point, no more limbo, no more "chronic" condition, no more unknowns.
It's really because of this book, Radical Remission, that I am embarking on this new journey. I have belief. I have something more than hope.
Dr. Turner finds that people who have cancer, especially the sort that I have, metastatic, who go into remission have certain things in common. When these things are combined, the effect is powerful. The effect is remission. They include:
- Radically changing your diet (embracing the macrobiotic approach)
- Take control of your health (advocacy)
- Follow your intuition (trust in your wiser self)
- Use herbs and supplements (food alone is not enough)
- Release suppressed emotions (forgiveness)
- Increase positive emotions (be happy, dammit!)
- Embrace social support (friends!!!)
- Deepen your spiritual connection (find your higher power)
- Have strong reasons for living (find your purpose)
So here is where my journey originates. It's bold. It's brave. It's slightly hubristic, thinking I can heal myself, but can I really wait on the pharmaceutical cancer industry to do it for me? I'm a stat, a number, a dollar sign to the corporate bottom line as a cancer patient.
It's time for me to step in a different direction. Not that I'm ready to give up my oncologist at this point, but I'm ready to trust ME and take action towards complete healing. Radical remission.